This usually takes me around 30 to 45 minutes.

Last Thursday it took me 2 hours and 10 minutes.

I use visualisations to clarify my thoughts. So I’m seeing a pond with water in it. Now work throws in a stone. The stone causes ripples on the surface of the water. Now study adds a stone and relationship does the same. Soon the ripples become waves and the water slushes over the side. The things I’ve done so far to prevent the water from overflowing are lowering the water (social withdrawal; I’m seeing less friends and less acrobatics) and raising the side of the pond (creating a study plan and structuring my work in a better way).
That did not prevent my beloved threesome from throwing rocks into my pond. I reckon time will make the waves become ripples again and a colleague suggested walking. Through walking the though process goes into an automatic, older part of the brain. This part is more adapt in soothing the waves of my hyper reflectiveness into becoming ripples.
Today I walked in “park Brakkenstein” and it’s botanical garden.

Now luckily I’m studying to be a psychosomatic physical therapist. Part of this study means I have to self reflect together with a group of fellow students and a coach. Coaching people with psychosomatic complaint means you have to know yourself. This means I have plenty of help to get organised.

Friday:
- Arrive at Stavelot in Belgium at 8.30pm
- Do a 16km bike trip to adjust to the hilly countryside
- Drink wine and go to bed at 6.00am

Saturday:
- Rise at 11.00am
- Watch Netherlands – Japan

- Do a bike trip for about 4 hours around Stavelot

- Drink beer and wine
- Go to bed at 3.30am
- Crash through the bed, because some people found out my bed sucked. When dropping on to my bed and I would actually burst through the bottom of the bed.

Sunday:
- Get up at 12.00am
- Do a kayak trip of 9 km for about 2 hours
- Get home at 21.00am and die of exhaustion

My colleagues prepared me for a life in a living community

If you are unable to use one side of your body it’s sometimes nice to do stuff on your knees. Especially if it’s acrobatics.

Due to my temporary mobility problem I decided to spend time re-doing the PHYSIQUE website. The new site is online and can be viewed on http://www.physique.nl/. The old site looked like this.

Finally and most importantly I decided that living all alone in the south of Nijmegen doesn’t work for me. Today I was invited to have dinner with people that wanted to see if I could join their house. It’s a group of people owning five houses and everybody who joins becomes a owner. I’d be living together with 4 other people and having a communal living room, kitchen, a shower and a bedroom by myself of about 20m2. There is a big garden. It would be nice to live close to the center without having the stress of buying a house and having the benefit of other people around me. Let’s see if I’m accepted.

I’ll take you back to why I started at Physique. Back in the days when I was a student I flunked a practical period at the Radboud University Medical Centre just after I came back from a stay in South Africa. This would be in 2001. Somehow I wasn’t able to fulfil my role as a student in that clinical setting. This could have been due to my experiences in Cape town, but probably it had more to do with my character clashing with both my supervisors and the clinical feel to everything done there. Needless to say, it wasn’t my cup of tea.

As luck would have had it I had an opportunity to do my last practical period at Maarten van der Ploeg’s private practice. I was given a second chance and prove myself as a professional physiotherapist. The team, the setting and the experiences made for an excellent opportunity to get back my self esteem.

Now we skip to July 2009 and I’m very certain reintegration therapy is what I want to do. But OCA is not the place I feel happy. There was still this lingering feeling of wanting to have a nice group of colleagues around me. In October 2009 I got the opportunity I wanted. Setting up the reintegration department of Physique again. I can talk a lot about standardising, PR, education, budgets or clients, but ultimately it meant that I had to increase our case load from 3 new clients in October 2009 to 6 new clients a month by March 2010. December 2009 was promising with 5 new clients. January 2010 is not at its end yet and we already have 7 new clients.
And you know what? It wasn’t even difficult come to think about it. It was a team effort.

In January 2010 I have a deadline. You know I started working with Physique the first of October 2009. I wrote an activity plan until the end of this year. Everybody involved approved so I started working. A little hiccup occurred in the beginning of November when I was asked to take 16 hours worth of physiotherapy clients instead of the normal 8 hours. This left me with the problem that I needed more hours working on setting up our re-integration product. In short my work in the months of October, November and December 2009 entails; meeting the people involved in the area of re-integration, gathering and putting together all information within Physique, executing re-integration programs as a physiotherapist, optimising the present stuff, make sure everybody is on board, make PR material and update the website. Looking at the work still left I think I’m going to make it. So come January 2010 and Physique will have something to show the world of re-integration. Then my work will be telling the world it’s the best you can get.